Day 29

Goals for the next 30 days

-Make good art

-Make really good art.

 

Day 28

something that you miss

I just had to stop myself from writing “My Cat” because that’s just sad, isn’t it?

I’ll say Summer.

I also miss the sun.

Day 27

A problem that you have had.

Jesus, thats a huge question. I’ve had a lot of problems.

I mean, physical, emotional, psychological, spiritual. You name it i’ve had an issue. My back is constantly screwed up, I have to wear wrist braces because I rode my bike too hard for too long, I’ve got more anxiety related quirks and tics than I have actual personality, and I really have no idea what I’m doing most of the time.

I guess my current problem is that I can’t seem to get the things that are going on in my mind out on paper.

You see, I’m writing a novella instead of taking English102, and I have this story in my head but every time I go to write it down I get maybe a page out and then it just stops. My ability to write just goes out the window and I devolve in to someone with a 6th grade writing level and a fondness for commas that far exceeds their necessity.

I keep telling myself that I’ll just sit down and write it, but the problem with that plan is that the product wouldn’t be good. I need what I produce to be good. Art, writing, cooking, speaking, I have the constant driving need to be good at these things.

This is problematic, because I am imperfect and cannot be exceptional at everything I try. Actually, I guess that is my problem. I expect perfection. I expect perfection and I cannot follow through. For example, I had a 3.48 last semester and I was incredibly unhappy with that GPA since I’ve been used to a 4.0 at Temple. Even though I know on an objective level that I should be happy (especially considering I take an overloaded schedule) I still kick myself for not having a higher GPA. It’s so stupid of me, but I can’t help it.

That problem of expecting perfection is an overarching theme in my life. It is a constant driving force in everything I do, and has honestly created some disordered behaviors that I have had to work hard to get past.

At the same time, it is a driving force in my life, and if I were to overcome that problem completely I don’t know if i’d be able to make art or write or do anything besides lay around being content with myself.

Day 26

What kind of person attracts you?

I’m just going to go ahead and assume you mean romantically, since thats the kind of questionnaire this is.

What I find most attractive is kindness, followed by intelligence. I can’t really pinpoint any physical characteristics since I’m attracted to a lot of different things, and really truly I am attracted to personality way before I am attracted to anything physically.

Day 25

Someone who fascinates you and why.

I’m fascinated by everyone I meet. People are amazing.

Day 24

Your favorite movie and what it’s about

No, I cannot possibly narrow it down to one.

I refuse.

I can list some of my favorite movies right now. Lets go for 5 that I would want to watch right now if I had the opportunity.

1.) Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Man, I really need to invest and buy this movie. It is just wonderful. It’s adapted from the musical of the same name  about Hedwig, who grew up in east berlin, had a (botched) sex change operation so ze could immigrate. Its also about gender identity and it has great music.

2.) BBC’s 6 hour Pride and Prejudice

Old fashioned polite british romance, AND sassyness! It is the adaptation most true to the book , and it has colin firth.

3.) Once

I really like the Frames, and this movie is sweet. Its about a serendipitous musical connection of two artists/friends.

4.) the Up Series (documentary films)

This is about people. It follows a group of kids from the age of 7 to 49. Its an astonishing piece of documentary filmmaking that spans (almost) an entire lifetime.

5.)Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill (documentary)

Its about a man who takes care of parrots in San Francisco. Its so great.

I could think of 5 more, this list is ever changing.

Day 23

5 (current) famous men who you find attractive

I’ve changed the grammar.

It was really difficult for me to find actual people, not fictional characters.

Okay, I guess. I mean, I don’t want to objectify anyone. I’m going to list 4 dudes and some ladies.

1.) Colin Firth

I blame the BBC version of Pride and Prejudice.
Generally, though, in interviews and the like  he’s struck me as a genuinely good person as well as being rather dashing.

2.) Craig Ferguson

Sexiest man in television. Hands down.
Its the charming, intelligent, funny thing. Can’t help it.

3.)   Jim Henson

He is (was) SO GOOD at making puppets! How can I resist that skill?

4.) Benedict Cumberbatch (Only as Sherlock)

This comes primarily from my deep love for the Sherlock Holmes stories, and how lovely the recent adaptation and modernization is.

5.) Ellen and Portia.

I would gay for them (polyamory!) in a second. Attractive blond supercouple.

Day 22

How have you changed in the past 2 years.

how was I different in february 2009?
Well, at that time I was working in a library. I was (more realistically, rose was) planning the bike trip.

I was, at that point burnt out on art, sad, and no idea what I wanted to do with my life. All I knew at that point was that I was about to leave on a cross-country bicycle trip.

Since then I’ve bike 2,000 miles, studied science, religion, and finally art again.

I’d like to think that I’m somewhat wiser, but despite my best efforts I am definitely older.

Day 21

One of your favorite television shows.

Northern Exposure.

Northern Exposure is one of my top 5 favorite television programs of all time (shout out to my mom who was the one that got me started watching it.)

I don’t really feel like talking about how great it is, it just is. Watch some.

“Nah, I never really liked the whole structured education thing”

I agree with Ed on computers.

Day 20

How important do you think education is?

Deeply important.

I would wax poetic about teachers, but I already have. You guys know I love you.